Did you guess yet? Huh? I'll wait...
Give up?
I'm sitting in my recliner. Surfing the internet. On my brand spanking new laptop! Squeeee! I'm so excited. You have no idea how good it feels not to be sitting on the world's most uncomfortable computer chair right now.
I've already run into my first laptop related problem. Ya see, a lot of my numerical passwords I make up by what is easy to remember on the number keypad and I don't even pay attention to what numbers I'm pushing. But laptops don't really have number keypads. So when I went to sign in to Blogger, I couldn't remember what numbers my password was! LOL. I am soooo used to using a keypad. A lot of my work is entering numbers, so I use it a lot. This is going to take some getting used to. :)
But yay! I *heart* my new laptop. It's so new and clean and free of junk. And everything that I put on it will be done my way. Suh-weet. *happy dance*
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Friday, November 24, 2006
It's official. I'm insane.
I always thought those people who stood outside stores at 4am on Black Friday were crazy. Hell, even the people who went shopping after noon were nuts! So someone please explain to me why I am about to go to Best Buy at 3 am to stand in line for 2 hours, in hopes of getting a laptop that I probably have no realistic chance of getting? I can't believe I'm really going to do this. I've gone off the deep end.
Wish me luck!
UPDATE:
No laptop for Jen. :( Looooooong, sleepless, grumpy story: When we arrived at 3:15, the line at Best Buy was too ridiculous to even consider waiting in. It was wrapped around 3 sides of the building. There was a Staples right next door that also had a laptop deal, and there were only about 20 people waiting. But they didn't open until 6 and my mom didn't want to wait that long. So off we went to Kohls because they opened at 5 and there were a few things my mom wanted. When we arrived, there were 6 people waiting in line. We stayed in the car until about 4:15 and then we went and stood in line because it was starting to get pretty busy. By the end, I'd guess there were about 250 people waiting, and we were somewhere around #50. Right before 5, people started getting out of their cars and just waiting in the parking lot in front of the doors. Huge line of people? What huge line of people? I'm superior to them and I should get to go ahead of all these other people who've been standing in the cold for an hour. Fucking assholes. I thought there might be a riot because the people around me in line started screaming at the line jumpers. No suck luck, no punches were thrown. But it was pretty hilarious.
This being my first time with the Black Friday madness, I wasn't really sure what to expect. I mean, yeah, ya hear the stories of people beating each other up over a Tickle-Me-Elmo, but surely that won't happen here. Heh. I have to tell you, the way those people ran in the store and started snatching up the portable dvd players was amazing. I got an immediate mental picture of a swarm of pihranas attacking some fresh meat. LOL. I suddenly understood how it could get out of control, FAST. All the dvd players were wiped out within about 2 minutes. I could've grabbed one had I wanted one, but I didn't. My mom started to go a little crazy too, running around in a panic, looking for the items she wanted (a fake pre-lit christmas tree and a 13-in-1 game table). She found them, grabbed one of the last few and off we went to the checkout. All-in-all, it wasn't too bad. We were outta there by 5:30. Just a half hour of craziness.
So then we went back to the Staples, who was opening at 6. Surprise, surprise- the line was much longer now. But I waited anyhow. When I finally got into the store and asked about the laptop, I was told that they had handed out tickets and you had to have one to get the laptop. *sigh* I was really pissed. If we had just waited when we were there at 3:30 when there were only 20 other people, I'm sure I could've gotten one. But noooo. We had to go to Kohls for a stupid fake tree and a game table. *rolls eyes* Oh, and Staples had police guarding the front of the line so that people couldn't jump in. The lady in line behind me told me that last year someone had cut in line and was promptly beaten to a pulp. Insane.
So then I was determined to get a deal for all my troubles. I mean, I'm not staying awake all night and freezing my tush off to come away empty handed, dammit! :) There had been some dvds that were really good prices at Best Buy. The line was gone now (everyone was inside the store, of course) and we decided to check it out. Success! I got:
Prison Break, Season 1 ($20, regularly $50)
Arrested Development, Season 3 ($10, regularly $25)
50 First Dates ($3)
Big Fish ($3)
Fight Club ($5)
The checkout line was ridiculous. It started in the very back of the store and wound up and down through the aisles of the appliance section. I think we waited about 30 minutes just to check-out.
So I didn't get my laptop *megapout* but at least I got something. And now I can say that I have experienced Black Friday and I never have to do it again! LOL. I got home around 8am and crashed until about 1. I think I'll go watch some Prison Break goodness now. *grin*
Oh, and I'll probably buy my laptop from Dell later on today. It's about $150 more than the ones I was hoping to get this morning, but it's still a good deal. Not a go-out-shopping-at-3am-with-the-other-crazies deal, but a good deal nonetheless. :)
UPDATE, PART DEUX:
Why, why, why is it neccessary to put security tape on all 3 sides of a dvd and then wrap it in plastic? It took me 5 minutes to to peel the tape off of 1 dvd! Grrrrrrr!
Wish me luck!
UPDATE:
No laptop for Jen. :( Looooooong, sleepless, grumpy story: When we arrived at 3:15, the line at Best Buy was too ridiculous to even consider waiting in. It was wrapped around 3 sides of the building. There was a Staples right next door that also had a laptop deal, and there were only about 20 people waiting. But they didn't open until 6 and my mom didn't want to wait that long. So off we went to Kohls because they opened at 5 and there were a few things my mom wanted. When we arrived, there were 6 people waiting in line. We stayed in the car until about 4:15 and then we went and stood in line because it was starting to get pretty busy. By the end, I'd guess there were about 250 people waiting, and we were somewhere around #50. Right before 5, people started getting out of their cars and just waiting in the parking lot in front of the doors. Huge line of people? What huge line of people? I'm superior to them and I should get to go ahead of all these other people who've been standing in the cold for an hour. Fucking assholes. I thought there might be a riot because the people around me in line started screaming at the line jumpers. No suck luck, no punches were thrown. But it was pretty hilarious.
This being my first time with the Black Friday madness, I wasn't really sure what to expect. I mean, yeah, ya hear the stories of people beating each other up over a Tickle-Me-Elmo, but surely that won't happen here. Heh. I have to tell you, the way those people ran in the store and started snatching up the portable dvd players was amazing. I got an immediate mental picture of a swarm of pihranas attacking some fresh meat. LOL. I suddenly understood how it could get out of control, FAST. All the dvd players were wiped out within about 2 minutes. I could've grabbed one had I wanted one, but I didn't. My mom started to go a little crazy too, running around in a panic, looking for the items she wanted (a fake pre-lit christmas tree and a 13-in-1 game table). She found them, grabbed one of the last few and off we went to the checkout. All-in-all, it wasn't too bad. We were outta there by 5:30. Just a half hour of craziness.
So then we went back to the Staples, who was opening at 6. Surprise, surprise- the line was much longer now. But I waited anyhow. When I finally got into the store and asked about the laptop, I was told that they had handed out tickets and you had to have one to get the laptop. *sigh* I was really pissed. If we had just waited when we were there at 3:30 when there were only 20 other people, I'm sure I could've gotten one. But noooo. We had to go to Kohls for a stupid fake tree and a game table. *rolls eyes* Oh, and Staples had police guarding the front of the line so that people couldn't jump in. The lady in line behind me told me that last year someone had cut in line and was promptly beaten to a pulp. Insane.
So then I was determined to get a deal for all my troubles. I mean, I'm not staying awake all night and freezing my tush off to come away empty handed, dammit! :) There had been some dvds that were really good prices at Best Buy. The line was gone now (everyone was inside the store, of course) and we decided to check it out. Success! I got:
Prison Break, Season 1 ($20, regularly $50)
Arrested Development, Season 3 ($10, regularly $25)
50 First Dates ($3)
Big Fish ($3)
Fight Club ($5)
The checkout line was ridiculous. It started in the very back of the store and wound up and down through the aisles of the appliance section. I think we waited about 30 minutes just to check-out.
So I didn't get my laptop *megapout* but at least I got something. And now I can say that I have experienced Black Friday and I never have to do it again! LOL. I got home around 8am and crashed until about 1. I think I'll go watch some Prison Break goodness now. *grin*
Oh, and I'll probably buy my laptop from Dell later on today. It's about $150 more than the ones I was hoping to get this morning, but it's still a good deal. Not a go-out-shopping-at-3am-with-the-other-crazies deal, but a good deal nonetheless. :)
UPDATE, PART DEUX:
Why, why, why is it neccessary to put security tape on all 3 sides of a dvd and then wrap it in plastic? It took me 5 minutes to to peel the tape off of 1 dvd! Grrrrrrr!
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
I'm going to be an aunt! (again)
My sister is pregnant! Yay!
This news makes me happy. She had been saying that she wasn't sure if she wanted another baby or not, and since I don't really ever plan on having kids I was worried that I wouldn't get to have that wonderful new-baby-in-your-arms feeling again. I was also getting worried because Tate is 4 now and I didn't want there to be a huge age difference if they did have another baby. But they will be pretty much the same as my sister and I are, about 4.5 years difference. Which is good, I think. We are all really hoping it's a girl (my sis was very disappointed at first when she found out Tate was a boy) but of course everyone would love another boy, too. She's only about 6 weeks now, so there's still a long way to go. Her due date as of now is July 13, which is a Friday. Heh.
Yay! *jumps up and down*
This news makes me happy. She had been saying that she wasn't sure if she wanted another baby or not, and since I don't really ever plan on having kids I was worried that I wouldn't get to have that wonderful new-baby-in-your-arms feeling again. I was also getting worried because Tate is 4 now and I didn't want there to be a huge age difference if they did have another baby. But they will be pretty much the same as my sister and I are, about 4.5 years difference. Which is good, I think. We are all really hoping it's a girl (my sis was very disappointed at first when she found out Tate was a boy) but of course everyone would love another boy, too. She's only about 6 weeks now, so there's still a long way to go. Her due date as of now is July 13, which is a Friday. Heh.
Yay! *jumps up and down*
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
Uhhhh. Hi.
I don't have much to update about. I've been in a real funk lately. And it's that time of the month and I am just blah.
I have to get a new car in January so I have been looking around online and paying more attention to cars on the road. Back in 2003 when I got my current car, an Acura RSX, I was also looking at the Mazda 6. It was brand new then and I loved the way it looked, inside and out. But then I decided that I didn't want a 4 door car. I didn't need something that big. I rarely have other passengers in my car, so a 2 door was fine. But I still loved the Mazda 6 and I figured that would be my next car. 4 years later, I still don't need a 4 door car, but I think I would like it for the ease of just throwing stuff in the backseat and I'd also like to have something that sits a little higher because the world is being overrun by SUV's and it's really not safe for little coupes anymore. Anyway, now that I am paying more attention to cars on the road, I am noticing that the 6's are everywhere! And that kind of turns me off. I don't want a car that everyone else has. That is one thing I loved about my Acura when I got it, there were hardly any other people in my area driving it. Until they built an Acura dealership in the area, that is. Heh. There is also a Mazda 3, which has the same look as the 6, but it is a little smaller and cheaper. I am considering this too.
I think the main contender in my line-up right now is the Saturn Ion Quad Coupe. It has a lot of what I am looking for. A coupe with 4 doors! Genius! *grin* But really, I think it is very cool that it has little doors to make getting in the backseat easier, and I can still keep the sportier coupe style that I like. (Side note: I keep typing couple. It's getting annoying.) There is a Saturn dealership right down the street from me, but this car is not a common sight on the roads. Add in the price and features, and I think this car might be a good one for me.
Other cars I am considering:
Honda Civic. Eh. Another car that everyone drives, but the price might be right. I don't know whether I would go for another coupe or step up to the sedan.
Pontiac G5. Very cool looking car. I saw one on the road and it caught my eye.
Chevy Cobalt. I'm basically only looking into this car because I saw one that was my favorite shade of purple. Yeah, I can be a total girl when it comes to car shopping. I want pretty colors! :) (Side note: What is up with color choices these days? Black, white, silver, tan or red. That's what most have to offer. Bo-ring! What about a nice blue or green or purple? I've had 2 silver cars and my current car is black. I'd like an actual color, other than red because I hate red, but it looks like I might be going back to silver. Which isn't too bad because it is my favorite color after all.)
Toyota Corolla. I haven't done much research on this one yet, but it's on my list to check out.
So that's how I've been spending a lot of my days. Building and pricing cars. I'll probably get out and start test driving next month. I hope I can find a car that I really like, but that costs a little less than what I pay now. If I want to have any hope of moving to a new apartment/townhouse next year, I need to cut back on some expenses. *sigh*
I had pictures of all the cars, but blogger won't let me add them. Big surprise. *rolls eyes*
Phew. That was boring. Sorry. :)
I have to get a new car in January so I have been looking around online and paying more attention to cars on the road. Back in 2003 when I got my current car, an Acura RSX, I was also looking at the Mazda 6. It was brand new then and I loved the way it looked, inside and out. But then I decided that I didn't want a 4 door car. I didn't need something that big. I rarely have other passengers in my car, so a 2 door was fine. But I still loved the Mazda 6 and I figured that would be my next car. 4 years later, I still don't need a 4 door car, but I think I would like it for the ease of just throwing stuff in the backseat and I'd also like to have something that sits a little higher because the world is being overrun by SUV's and it's really not safe for little coupes anymore. Anyway, now that I am paying more attention to cars on the road, I am noticing that the 6's are everywhere! And that kind of turns me off. I don't want a car that everyone else has. That is one thing I loved about my Acura when I got it, there were hardly any other people in my area driving it. Until they built an Acura dealership in the area, that is. Heh. There is also a Mazda 3, which has the same look as the 6, but it is a little smaller and cheaper. I am considering this too.
I think the main contender in my line-up right now is the Saturn Ion Quad Coupe. It has a lot of what I am looking for. A coupe with 4 doors! Genius! *grin* But really, I think it is very cool that it has little doors to make getting in the backseat easier, and I can still keep the sportier coupe style that I like. (Side note: I keep typing couple. It's getting annoying.) There is a Saturn dealership right down the street from me, but this car is not a common sight on the roads. Add in the price and features, and I think this car might be a good one for me.
Other cars I am considering:
Honda Civic. Eh. Another car that everyone drives, but the price might be right. I don't know whether I would go for another coupe or step up to the sedan.
Pontiac G5. Very cool looking car. I saw one on the road and it caught my eye.
Chevy Cobalt. I'm basically only looking into this car because I saw one that was my favorite shade of purple. Yeah, I can be a total girl when it comes to car shopping. I want pretty colors! :) (Side note: What is up with color choices these days? Black, white, silver, tan or red. That's what most have to offer. Bo-ring! What about a nice blue or green or purple? I've had 2 silver cars and my current car is black. I'd like an actual color, other than red because I hate red, but it looks like I might be going back to silver. Which isn't too bad because it is my favorite color after all.)
Toyota Corolla. I haven't done much research on this one yet, but it's on my list to check out.
So that's how I've been spending a lot of my days. Building and pricing cars. I'll probably get out and start test driving next month. I hope I can find a car that I really like, but that costs a little less than what I pay now. If I want to have any hope of moving to a new apartment/townhouse next year, I need to cut back on some expenses. *sigh*
I had pictures of all the cars, but blogger won't let me add them. Big surprise. *rolls eyes*
Phew. That was boring. Sorry. :)
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Work, guitars and tv
Whew. It has been a busy few days at work for me. My mom went on vacation so I was left to handle pretty much everything for over a week. She'll be back tomorrow, so I only have 1 hour and 15 minutes left as office manager. Thank gawd. I hate running the office. Hate it. Every time the phone rings I have a mini-coronary and I get so stressed out that my eye starts to twitch.
Last night I had my final guitar class. I am kind of sad that it is over. I enjoyed the class, and enjoyed the stuff that we learned (though I wish we had learned a bit more), and enjoyed the other people in the class. We all exchanged numbers though, and we might get together for a practice session some time in the future. I would definitely be interested in taking another class, but my teacher said that they wouldn't be offering the intermediate class until next fall! Bastards. I could also take private lessons from the teacher, but they are really expensive. I guess I'll just keep practicing for the time being, and then I'll see how much farther I might want to go with it.
Oh, and he only gave us 2 songs to practice. "Let it Be" by the Beatles and "Amazing Grace". I'm not sure what happened to "Country Roads" and I'm swear that he said he would give us a bunch of songs to look over. *shrug*
I freaking love Wednesday night tv. There are 6 great shows on, which is the perfect amount because I can watch 3 and tape 3. My schedule:
8:00 -- Watch DWTS results, Tape ANTM
9:00 -- Watch TBL, Tape LOST
10:00-- Watch TC, Tape T9
DECODER:
DWTS = Dancing With The Stars
ANTM = America's Next Top Model
TBL = The Biggest Loser
LOST = LOST
TC = Top Chef
T9 = The Nine
*grin*
I'm really looking forward to Top Chef tonight. I have a new reality crush.
Ilan = Yummers
Last night I had my final guitar class. I am kind of sad that it is over. I enjoyed the class, and enjoyed the stuff that we learned (though I wish we had learned a bit more), and enjoyed the other people in the class. We all exchanged numbers though, and we might get together for a practice session some time in the future. I would definitely be interested in taking another class, but my teacher said that they wouldn't be offering the intermediate class until next fall! Bastards. I could also take private lessons from the teacher, but they are really expensive. I guess I'll just keep practicing for the time being, and then I'll see how much farther I might want to go with it.
Oh, and he only gave us 2 songs to practice. "Let it Be" by the Beatles and "Amazing Grace". I'm not sure what happened to "Country Roads" and I'm swear that he said he would give us a bunch of songs to look over. *shrug*
I freaking love Wednesday night tv. There are 6 great shows on, which is the perfect amount because I can watch 3 and tape 3. My schedule:
8:00 -- Watch DWTS results, Tape ANTM
9:00 -- Watch TBL, Tape LOST
10:00-- Watch TC, Tape T9
DECODER:
DWTS = Dancing With The Stars
ANTM = America's Next Top Model
TBL = The Biggest Loser
LOST = LOST
TC = Top Chef
T9 = The Nine
*grin*
I'm really looking forward to Top Chef tonight. I have a new reality crush.
Ilan = Yummers
Friday, October 13, 2006
All about MeMe
01. What does your Blog Name mean?
It doesn't really mean anything. I just thought it was funny.
02. Elaborate on your default icon
I wanted something like an optical illusion, but I couldn't find anything that I liked. I thought this icon was cool. A downward spiral, much like my life. Heh.
03. What's your middle name?
Lynn
04. What is your current relationship status?
Single.
05. Honestly, do you and your crush flirt alot?
Uh. No? I don't really have a crush, other than movie/tv stars.
06. What is your current mood?
Calm. Bored.
07. What do you love most?
My nephew.
08. What makes you most happy?
Alcohol. :)
09. Are you musically inclined?
I'm beginning to think no.
10. If you could go back in time, and change something, would you?
Absolutely.
11. If you had to be an animal for one day, what would you be?
A fish. It'd be cool to swim around and see what happens on the ocean floor.
12. Ever have a near death experience?
Not really. I'm not sure. Heh.
13. Name one thing you do a lot?
Talk to myself. All the frickin time. Thankfully I only do it when I'm alone, so no one hears me.
14. What's the name of the song that's stuck in your head right now?
"Rapture" by Hurt
15. Who did you copy and paste this from?
Glowie and Swami.
16. Name someone with the same b-day as you?
My cousin Matt.
17. Here, enter your own secret question:
Uh. What scent of Secret deodorant do you like the most?
18. Have you ever sang in front of a large audience? Where?
God no!
19. What are the things you notice about the OPPOSITE sex?
Lips, eyes, hair, hands, ass. :)
20. Do you still watch kiddy movies or TV shows ?
Not really. Only if I'm babysitting.
21. Do you have glasses?
In my cabinets? Yes. On my face? Not anymore. Jen *hearts* Lasik.
22. Are you comfortable with your height?
No. I wish I was a little bit taller. (I wish I was a baller. Wish I had a girl who looked good, I would call her.)(Anyone get that? Anyone?)
23. Name something funny that always happens to you?
I can't think of anything. At least not anything funny.
24. Do you speak any other languages?
I took 4 years of Spanish in high school, but I wouldn't say that I speak it. :)
25. What's your favorite smell?
Lavender. Mmmmmm.
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1. If my life were a drinking game, everyone would do a shot when...
I pretend I'm working.
2. The Rat Packer I most identify with is: A) Frank Sinatra; B) Sammy Davis Jr; C) Dean Martin; or D) Peter Lawford
*stealing from MM*
Huh? You mean the BRAT pack? Oh, easy. Ally Sheedy. *smile*
3. The first famous person I liked was:
I don't know if he was the first, but I used to love Corky Nemec from a tv show called "Parker Lewis Can't Lose". (I was going to add a pic of him here, but blogger wont' let me.)
4. If I had to gain 30 pounds, I would eat:
Pretty much what I eat now. Pizza, burgers, fries, other assorted greasy junk food.
5. Choose one: A) The Rolling Stones; B) The Beatles
6. The person I'm mistaken for most often is:
No one, really. Just the general "you look like someone, but I can't think of who."
7. Pick a Jessica: A) Jessica Alba; B) Jessica Biel; C)Jessica Simpson; D)Jessica Tandy
8. The worst advice I've ever received:
"Ask him out. The worst that could happen is he will say no."
9. After a long day, I like to kick back with: A) Martini; B) Cold Beer; C) Pinot Noir; or D) Chamomile Tea
10. The most underrated performer is:
I have no clue.
11. The thing I've wanted to buy but am just too embarrassed to purchase:
Ah, the beauty of the internet. If I'm too embarrassed to go into a store, I will find it online.
12. My porn name is: Zippy Pearl.
(childhood pet + street you grew up on)
It doesn't really mean anything. I just thought it was funny.
02. Elaborate on your default icon
I wanted something like an optical illusion, but I couldn't find anything that I liked. I thought this icon was cool. A downward spiral, much like my life. Heh.
03. What's your middle name?
Lynn
04. What is your current relationship status?
Single.
05. Honestly, do you and your crush flirt alot?
Uh. No? I don't really have a crush, other than movie/tv stars.
06. What is your current mood?
Calm. Bored.
07. What do you love most?
My nephew.
08. What makes you most happy?
Alcohol. :)
09. Are you musically inclined?
I'm beginning to think no.
10. If you could go back in time, and change something, would you?
Absolutely.
11. If you had to be an animal for one day, what would you be?
A fish. It'd be cool to swim around and see what happens on the ocean floor.
12. Ever have a near death experience?
Not really. I'm not sure. Heh.
13. Name one thing you do a lot?
Talk to myself. All the frickin time. Thankfully I only do it when I'm alone, so no one hears me.
14. What's the name of the song that's stuck in your head right now?
"Rapture" by Hurt
15. Who did you copy and paste this from?
Glowie and Swami.
16. Name someone with the same b-day as you?
My cousin Matt.
17. Here, enter your own secret question:
Uh. What scent of Secret deodorant do you like the most?
18. Have you ever sang in front of a large audience? Where?
God no!
19. What are the things you notice about the OPPOSITE sex?
Lips, eyes, hair, hands, ass. :)
20. Do you still watch kiddy movies or TV shows ?
Not really. Only if I'm babysitting.
21. Do you have glasses?
In my cabinets? Yes. On my face? Not anymore. Jen *hearts* Lasik.
22. Are you comfortable with your height?
No. I wish I was a little bit taller. (I wish I was a baller. Wish I had a girl who looked good, I would call her.)(Anyone get that? Anyone?)
23. Name something funny that always happens to you?
I can't think of anything. At least not anything funny.
24. Do you speak any other languages?
I took 4 years of Spanish in high school, but I wouldn't say that I speak it. :)
25. What's your favorite smell?
Lavender. Mmmmmm.
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1. If my life were a drinking game, everyone would do a shot when...
I pretend I'm working.
2. The Rat Packer I most identify with is: A) Frank Sinatra; B) Sammy Davis Jr; C) Dean Martin; or D) Peter Lawford
*stealing from MM*
Huh? You mean the BRAT pack? Oh, easy. Ally Sheedy. *smile*
3. The first famous person I liked was:
I don't know if he was the first, but I used to love Corky Nemec from a tv show called "Parker Lewis Can't Lose". (I was going to add a pic of him here, but blogger wont' let me.)
4. If I had to gain 30 pounds, I would eat:
Pretty much what I eat now. Pizza, burgers, fries, other assorted greasy junk food.
5. Choose one: A) The Rolling Stones; B) The Beatles
6. The person I'm mistaken for most often is:
No one, really. Just the general "you look like someone, but I can't think of who."
7. Pick a Jessica: A) Jessica Alba; B) Jessica Biel; C)Jessica Simpson; D)Jessica Tandy
8. The worst advice I've ever received:
"Ask him out. The worst that could happen is he will say no."
9. After a long day, I like to kick back with: A) Martini; B) Cold Beer; C) Pinot Noir; or D) Chamomile Tea
10. The most underrated performer is:
I have no clue.
11. The thing I've wanted to buy but am just too embarrassed to purchase:
Ah, the beauty of the internet. If I'm too embarrassed to go into a store, I will find it online.
12. My porn name is: Zippy Pearl.
(childhood pet + street you grew up on)
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Myspace is crazy
I was really bored today, so I did a little snooping around on myspace. I have an account, but I don't really go on there much. Glow is my only friend. Heh. But anyway, I updated my profile a bit, and then I saw this feature where you could search for people. So I put in a name of a friend from high school. Profiles came up, but none of them seemed to be him. So then I put in the name of an old friend from Staples. I found him! I guess he's living in Arizona now. How crazy. I didn't write him a message because it might seem creepy that I'm doing a search on him. Heh. So then I decided to search for one more person. A person I used to think I loved. A person who is tied to one of the worst times in my life. I found him. And now I feel sick. I shouldn't have done that search. I should have just gone on thinking I was over him. I should have forgotten all about him by now. Ugh.
Anyway, my point is that it is insane that I can just type a name into a box and get a glimpse into the lives of people that I haven't talked to in years and years. Insane.
*goes to vomit*
Anyway, my point is that it is insane that I can just type a name into a box and get a glimpse into the lives of people that I haven't talked to in years and years. Insane.
*goes to vomit*
Monday, October 09, 2006
Fuck. Ow.
For the past few months I have had pretty much constant back pain, up between my shoulder blades. Last month, I woke up and the right side of my neck had spasmed and I couldn't move it at all. That got better after a few days, I can move it now, but it still hurts. Just now, I turned my head quickly and the left side of my neck spasmed. Shit! So now I have pain on both sides of my neck and most of my upper back. I don't know if I can take this much more. The main problem is probably one of two things:
1. My mattress sucks. I really need a new one, but I don't have the money for one. And I can't find a good pillow anywhere. I have bought so many pillows over the past year, and none of them are comfortable for me.
2. My big boobs are finally catching up with me. I have been lucky that I never had neck or shoulder problems considering the size of my chest, but maybe this is what is causing my pain now.
Oh, and I have shitty posture, too. It's probably the mattress. I guess I will have to buy one and use my credit card, because this pain is ridiculous. If I get the mattress and that doesn't solve the problem, looks like I might have to go to a chiropractor or something. :(
1. My mattress sucks. I really need a new one, but I don't have the money for one. And I can't find a good pillow anywhere. I have bought so many pillows over the past year, and none of them are comfortable for me.
2. My big boobs are finally catching up with me. I have been lucky that I never had neck or shoulder problems considering the size of my chest, but maybe this is what is causing my pain now.
Oh, and I have shitty posture, too. It's probably the mattress. I guess I will have to buy one and use my credit card, because this pain is ridiculous. If I get the mattress and that doesn't solve the problem, looks like I might have to go to a chiropractor or something. :(
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
Class, the second
I wasn't planning on doing another post about guitar class last night, since I figure it's pretty boring, but since I don't have anything else to talk about and since people are asking how it went, I guess I will. (Thank you all for asking, btw.)
The class was fine. We learned a new chord (D) and he claims that next week we will be learning a song. I don't see how that is possible. Heh. I think he said the song would be "Country Roads". Not exactly my cup of tea. *snort* But it should be fun (and frustrating) to try and play an actual song.
I can't really even play right now because my fingers are so sore, so that bums me out. I know I need to play more so that I can toughen up my fingers and form callouses, but right now I can't even press down on the chords hard enough to make sound. I just make this *thunk* sound. It's not pleasant. And it's embarrassing in class when the other 2 girls are playing nicely and I'm going *thunk, thunk, thunk*. I'm going to try just doing the finger placement (which will help to toughen up my fingers since I'll still be working on the strings) and not worry about strumming for a few days, because I get frustrated when I can't make it sound right. I also need to work on how I hold my thumb. That is messing me up as well.
At one point during class he was asking us to move from one chord to another (a new move that he hadn't taught us yet) and apparently I did it perfectly and he got all excited and said "Yes! Just like that. Do it again so they can see." and of course once he put me on the spot, I couldn't do it again! My fingers started flying everywhere! I don't like people looking at me! LOL. It's all very laid back though. Even though I feel self conscious most of the time, I don't think anyone is judging me, so that is good. Everyone is really nice. The teacher gives us lots of reassurance that we're doing good, and this is the hardest stage. When I was leaving he said I was doing great. Of course he's lying, but it's nice to hear. *grin*
The class was fine. We learned a new chord (D) and he claims that next week we will be learning a song. I don't see how that is possible. Heh. I think he said the song would be "Country Roads". Not exactly my cup of tea. *snort* But it should be fun (and frustrating) to try and play an actual song.
I can't really even play right now because my fingers are so sore, so that bums me out. I know I need to play more so that I can toughen up my fingers and form callouses, but right now I can't even press down on the chords hard enough to make sound. I just make this *thunk* sound. It's not pleasant. And it's embarrassing in class when the other 2 girls are playing nicely and I'm going *thunk, thunk, thunk*. I'm going to try just doing the finger placement (which will help to toughen up my fingers since I'll still be working on the strings) and not worry about strumming for a few days, because I get frustrated when I can't make it sound right. I also need to work on how I hold my thumb. That is messing me up as well.
At one point during class he was asking us to move from one chord to another (a new move that he hadn't taught us yet) and apparently I did it perfectly and he got all excited and said "Yes! Just like that. Do it again so they can see." and of course once he put me on the spot, I couldn't do it again! My fingers started flying everywhere! I don't like people looking at me! LOL. It's all very laid back though. Even though I feel self conscious most of the time, I don't think anyone is judging me, so that is good. Everyone is really nice. The teacher gives us lots of reassurance that we're doing good, and this is the hardest stage. When I was leaving he said I was doing great. Of course he's lying, but it's nice to hear. *grin*
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
*ices fingertips*
Ok. Here's the story. No, not of a lovely lady who was bringing up 3 very lovely girls. This one is about my first night of guitar class. :)
I got home from work, choked down a turkey sandwich, almost threw it up because I was so nervous, grabbed my guitar and headed out the door. The class was supposed to start at 7:30 and I showed up about 10 minutes early. I walked into the designated room (it's held at a local middle school, about 5 minutes from my apartment) and there was a woman sitting there strumming her guitar. I was surprised that there weren't more people, but I figured it was just because I like to be early for things. I sat down and we started chatting. She was probably in her 50's, even though she didn't look it, but she has a 30 year old son. Her name is Sheila and she was very nice and easy to talk to. She has been taking some private guitar classes, but didn't really like her instructor so she thought she would give someone else a try.
7:30 comes and goes, and it's still just me and Sheila. No teacher. No other students. We start to worry that the class was cancelled and we were not informed. A couple minutes later, 2 other women walk in. They were Hannah, 16, and her mom Sandy. (I'm writing their names so I don't forget them next week. Heh.) Hannah's mom was just dropping her off, but once she saw that there was no teacher she decided to stay a little while just in case no one showed up. We chit-chatted for quite a while longer. Everyone was very nice. Hannah and Sheila are both very talkative, which is good for me since I'm not so good at conversing with strangers.
We were still chatting at 7:45 when we heard some keys jingling in a side door. Some very odd little man came in and mumbled some stuff about people going to the wrong building. What people? The teacher? Other students? We didn't know. He was very hard to understand. Sheila asked him if we were in the right place and he mumbled something that passed for a yes, and then something about them being on their way, so we sat patiently and chatted a while longer.
Around 8:00, which was going to be my cut-off time for waiting any longer, we heard some footsteps coming down the hall. It was a man and a woman that turned out to be the teacher and his ??? He said she was his boss, which she laughed at, so I'm thinking maybe it was his wife? It wasn't clear. Heh. He apologized for keeping us waiting, and explained that he had gone to the place where he taught his last class by mistake. He said he would still like to get in the full hour if none of us didn't have anywhere to be. We didn't. :)
So, he started into his speech. He was a little bit of a douche (talking about how his technique is better than anything else, informing us that he has a cd coming out soon, telling stories about his backwoods Uncle Dave, etc.) but for the most part, a likeable guy. He kept making football references and old cowboy movie references and I looked around at the other two women that he was teaching and they didn't seem to be getting it either. LOL. He was funny though, and by this time I was starting to relax a little.
He talked for a while, he played a little bit while he was talking, and then he played this cool song medley for us. I didn't recognize many of them, but I did hear "Play That Funky Music" lol, some really pretty classical piece that I don't know the name of but I recognize it, and of course "Stairway to Heaven". *snort* He seemed like he was pretty good.
Then came the part where we actually learned stuff! Woo! He taught us 3 different chords and we just practiced getting our fingers placed correctly, and going back and forth between them. I was a little bit slower than the other girls, because they had both at least picked up a guitar before! LOL. He could sense that it was making me nervous, and he was nice about it, and kept telling me that I was doing good. We did that for awhile, and then time was up. He just told us to practice those 3 chords, even just for 5 minutes a day, to get used to the finger placement and feel of the strings. Damn the strings! My fingers are still hurting! LOL. It's going to take some getting used to, but I am looking forward to the next class. :)
Oh, and I am really surprised that they didn't cancel it since there were only 3 of us there. It is better this way, because we will all get much more personal instruction, but I was a little bummed. One of my hopes for this class was to make some friends my own age. Oh well. Both of the other students were really nice, and that is good. And I just really needed to get out of the house and try something new, and I'm proud of myself for going through with it.
Thank you all for encouraging me, and for not making me feel stupid about being so nervous. Love you guys! *smooches*
(I feel like I'm forgetting something I was going to say.... grrrr.)
I got home from work, choked down a turkey sandwich, almost threw it up because I was so nervous, grabbed my guitar and headed out the door. The class was supposed to start at 7:30 and I showed up about 10 minutes early. I walked into the designated room (it's held at a local middle school, about 5 minutes from my apartment) and there was a woman sitting there strumming her guitar. I was surprised that there weren't more people, but I figured it was just because I like to be early for things. I sat down and we started chatting. She was probably in her 50's, even though she didn't look it, but she has a 30 year old son. Her name is Sheila and she was very nice and easy to talk to. She has been taking some private guitar classes, but didn't really like her instructor so she thought she would give someone else a try.
7:30 comes and goes, and it's still just me and Sheila. No teacher. No other students. We start to worry that the class was cancelled and we were not informed. A couple minutes later, 2 other women walk in. They were Hannah, 16, and her mom Sandy. (I'm writing their names so I don't forget them next week. Heh.) Hannah's mom was just dropping her off, but once she saw that there was no teacher she decided to stay a little while just in case no one showed up. We chit-chatted for quite a while longer. Everyone was very nice. Hannah and Sheila are both very talkative, which is good for me since I'm not so good at conversing with strangers.
We were still chatting at 7:45 when we heard some keys jingling in a side door. Some very odd little man came in and mumbled some stuff about people going to the wrong building. What people? The teacher? Other students? We didn't know. He was very hard to understand. Sheila asked him if we were in the right place and he mumbled something that passed for a yes, and then something about them being on their way, so we sat patiently and chatted a while longer.
Around 8:00, which was going to be my cut-off time for waiting any longer, we heard some footsteps coming down the hall. It was a man and a woman that turned out to be the teacher and his ??? He said she was his boss, which she laughed at, so I'm thinking maybe it was his wife? It wasn't clear. Heh. He apologized for keeping us waiting, and explained that he had gone to the place where he taught his last class by mistake. He said he would still like to get in the full hour if none of us didn't have anywhere to be. We didn't. :)
So, he started into his speech. He was a little bit of a douche (talking about how his technique is better than anything else, informing us that he has a cd coming out soon, telling stories about his backwoods Uncle Dave, etc.) but for the most part, a likeable guy. He kept making football references and old cowboy movie references and I looked around at the other two women that he was teaching and they didn't seem to be getting it either. LOL. He was funny though, and by this time I was starting to relax a little.
He talked for a while, he played a little bit while he was talking, and then he played this cool song medley for us. I didn't recognize many of them, but I did hear "Play That Funky Music" lol, some really pretty classical piece that I don't know the name of but I recognize it, and of course "Stairway to Heaven". *snort* He seemed like he was pretty good.
Then came the part where we actually learned stuff! Woo! He taught us 3 different chords and we just practiced getting our fingers placed correctly, and going back and forth between them. I was a little bit slower than the other girls, because they had both at least picked up a guitar before! LOL. He could sense that it was making me nervous, and he was nice about it, and kept telling me that I was doing good. We did that for awhile, and then time was up. He just told us to practice those 3 chords, even just for 5 minutes a day, to get used to the finger placement and feel of the strings. Damn the strings! My fingers are still hurting! LOL. It's going to take some getting used to, but I am looking forward to the next class. :)
Oh, and I am really surprised that they didn't cancel it since there were only 3 of us there. It is better this way, because we will all get much more personal instruction, but I was a little bummed. One of my hopes for this class was to make some friends my own age. Oh well. Both of the other students were really nice, and that is good. And I just really needed to get out of the house and try something new, and I'm proud of myself for going through with it.
Thank you all for encouraging me, and for not making me feel stupid about being so nervous. Love you guys! *smooches*
(I feel like I'm forgetting something I was going to say.... grrrr.)
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
Ummm... *ack*
My guitar class starts tonight. I'm trying not to freak out, but I'm really nervous. I hate new experiences! Heh. I was seriously thinking about cancelling, but I just keep telling myself that it's only 4 hours out of my life and even if I make a fool out of myself somehow, I'll probably never see these people again. And maybe it'll be fun. I mean, I seriously doubt it, but you never know. LOL. I just don't like the unknown. I have no idea what this class is going to be like, I have no idea who else might be taking it, I have no idea what the teacher will be like, I have no idea if it will be worth the money I paid for it. It better be, because I'm really in no position to be blowing money. I know $65 might not seem like a lot to some of you, but it's a big deal to me. I just keep thinking of more important things that I could've used that money for. *sigh*
Evs. I'm trying to keep a positive attitude, but I'm just really nervous. And this is what I do when I'm nervous-- I spaz out and think of worst case scenarios and I question myself and try to think of every possible thing that could go wrong, so that if they do go wrong at least I was prepared for it. It's not an unknown anymore.
Anyway. Tomorrow, I'll let you all know how it went. :)
Evs. I'm trying to keep a positive attitude, but I'm just really nervous. And this is what I do when I'm nervous-- I spaz out and think of worst case scenarios and I question myself and try to think of every possible thing that could go wrong, so that if they do go wrong at least I was prepared for it. It's not an unknown anymore.
Anyway. Tomorrow, I'll let you all know how it went. :)
Thursday, September 21, 2006
Saturday, September 16, 2006
The Last Kiss
I went to the movies last night with my friend Tracy. We saw "The Last Kiss" starring my former pretend boyfriend Zach Braff, and one of my girl crushes, Rachel Bilson. OMH. I loved this movie. It was wonderful. Funny, dramatic, touching, everything a good movie should be. The soundtrack contained 2 of my very favoritest songs. When it ended, I wanted to watch it all over again. Heh. Go see it! And take me with you! :) (Note: contains a few rather sexual scenes, and a lot of swearing. Tons of f-bombs, which for some reason the rest of the theater found to be hilarious. I don't know why, but they laughed everytime someone said fuck. It was odd. I hate theater goers. They can be sooooo annoying. LOL.)
After that we went to Damon's and had some drinks and dinner. She got me a hilarious birthday card and burned me the new Tool cd. Yay! We sat and chatted for a while after dinner, and then called it a night. It was a very nice time. :)
Today I'm off to my mom's house. I don't think there will be anything special going on. Hopefully there will be some birthday cake! I want cake!
Thank you all for your birthday messages over in Carey's blog. *group smooch*
After that we went to Damon's and had some drinks and dinner. She got me a hilarious birthday card and burned me the new Tool cd. Yay! We sat and chatted for a while after dinner, and then called it a night. It was a very nice time. :)
Today I'm off to my mom's house. I don't think there will be anything special going on. Hopefully there will be some birthday cake! I want cake!
Thank you all for your birthday messages over in Carey's blog. *group smooch*
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
Note to self: Buy Mace
STRONGSVILLE -- Police continue looking for the suspect who assaulted a female Friday morning in the parking lot of the [name deleted] Apartments.
At 1 a.m. Friday morning, Strongsville Police responded to a female assaulted.
The victim reported she was walking to her apartment from her car when she was grabbed by an unknown male who wrapped one arm around her neck and placed his other hand over her mouth.
The victim reported that the assailant threw her to the ground and began choking her.
A male walking by heard the woman screaming and chased off the suspect.
The suspect is described as either a Hispanic male, a light-skinned black male, or a tanned white male. He is 6 feet tall, with a medium muscular build, brown hair and large eyebrows. The suspect was wearing a cream or gray colored shirt, a blue baseball cap, and light colored shoes.
Anyone who saw anything or who knows anything should contact the Strongsville Police Department.
Um. Yeah. Not feeling so safe anymore. I know it could happen anywhere, but I don't like that it actually happened in my freaking parking lot. *sigh* And gee, what a great description. I'm sure I'll be able to spot him. Beware of people with large eyebrows. *rolls eyes*
At 1 a.m. Friday morning, Strongsville Police responded to a female assaulted.
The victim reported she was walking to her apartment from her car when she was grabbed by an unknown male who wrapped one arm around her neck and placed his other hand over her mouth.
The victim reported that the assailant threw her to the ground and began choking her.
A male walking by heard the woman screaming and chased off the suspect.
The suspect is described as either a Hispanic male, a light-skinned black male, or a tanned white male. He is 6 feet tall, with a medium muscular build, brown hair and large eyebrows. The suspect was wearing a cream or gray colored shirt, a blue baseball cap, and light colored shoes.
Anyone who saw anything or who knows anything should contact the Strongsville Police Department.
Um. Yeah. Not feeling so safe anymore. I know it could happen anywhere, but I don't like that it actually happened in my freaking parking lot. *sigh* And gee, what a great description. I'm sure I'll be able to spot him. Beware of people with large eyebrows. *rolls eyes*
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Take a class! Take a class!
That is advice I've heard countless times, whenever I bitch about not having friends, not going places, not meeting people, etc. Great advice, yes. But I never thought I would actually follow it because a) I hate doing things by myself, b) I don't want to spend the money and c) I couldn't think of anything that would interest me.
Last night I got a booklet in the mail with a bunch of classes that my city is offering. I sat down and took a good long look at it. The first thing that caught my eye was:
Beginning Acting for Adults
By Brad Schreiber
A great introduction to the wonderful world of Theater! Students will learn how to prepare monologues and scenes for fun and auditions as well as participating in improvisational theater games. An informal showcase will be presented to family and friends at the last class. Don’t be shy, give it a try!
9/27-10/18 W 7-8:30 pm $55
Improv? Showcase? Ack! I don't think I'm ready for this yet. I think I need to work on just being comfortable doing new things before I jump into something like this. This class just sounds too skeery to me at this point in my life.
So, I kept browsing, and saw this:
Introduction to Guitar (Age 14 +)
By Bud Preston
Hands too big? Too small? Too weak? If you have ever said, or felt this, then this class is for you! Not a put your finger here, put your finger there, then strum class, the curriculum is designed to take you through a logical step by step process to understand what it takes to play the guitar fluently and with musicality. This class is great for beginners of all ages and a must for those frustrated with previous attempts at the guitar. Instructor is an instrumental/acoustic guitarist, performer and teacher.
9/26-10/24 T 7:30- 8:30 pm $65
Hey now. This sounds like it might be good. My mom, for no apparent reason, bought me a guitar several years ago for X-Mas. I had never asked for one, never expressed any interest in learning to play, but she thought I would like it. Since then, it has basically sat in a corner of my room and collected dust. I tried to tune it once, and broke one of the strings. LOL. Me = total guitar dummy. Heh. Oh, and I do have small hands. :) I like the part where is says "logical step by step process" because I think I could learn well that way. I'm all about the logic. $65 for 4 hours worth of lessons doesn't seem unreasonable. The "Age 14+" worries me slightly. I don't really want to be in a class with a bunch of 14 year olds, but I think people my age would take this class, too. Maybe. Cute 20-something guys like to play the guitar, right? ;) Sooooo. I think I'm going to sign up for this class. I can always cancel if I decide I'm too chicken shit. *grin*
What do you think?
(I'm predicting 100% of you tell me to go for it. Except for maybe a few smart-asses who will say the opposite now that I've written that sentence. *evil eyes*)
Last night I got a booklet in the mail with a bunch of classes that my city is offering. I sat down and took a good long look at it. The first thing that caught my eye was:
Beginning Acting for Adults
By Brad Schreiber
A great introduction to the wonderful world of Theater! Students will learn how to prepare monologues and scenes for fun and auditions as well as participating in improvisational theater games. An informal showcase will be presented to family and friends at the last class. Don’t be shy, give it a try!
9/27-10/18 W 7-8:30 pm $55
Improv? Showcase? Ack! I don't think I'm ready for this yet. I think I need to work on just being comfortable doing new things before I jump into something like this. This class just sounds too skeery to me at this point in my life.
So, I kept browsing, and saw this:
Introduction to Guitar (Age 14 +)
By Bud Preston
Hands too big? Too small? Too weak? If you have ever said, or felt this, then this class is for you! Not a put your finger here, put your finger there, then strum class, the curriculum is designed to take you through a logical step by step process to understand what it takes to play the guitar fluently and with musicality. This class is great for beginners of all ages and a must for those frustrated with previous attempts at the guitar. Instructor is an instrumental/acoustic guitarist, performer and teacher.
9/26-10/24 T 7:30- 8:30 pm $65
Hey now. This sounds like it might be good. My mom, for no apparent reason, bought me a guitar several years ago for X-Mas. I had never asked for one, never expressed any interest in learning to play, but she thought I would like it. Since then, it has basically sat in a corner of my room and collected dust. I tried to tune it once, and broke one of the strings. LOL. Me = total guitar dummy. Heh. Oh, and I do have small hands. :) I like the part where is says "logical step by step process" because I think I could learn well that way. I'm all about the logic. $65 for 4 hours worth of lessons doesn't seem unreasonable. The "Age 14+" worries me slightly. I don't really want to be in a class with a bunch of 14 year olds, but I think people my age would take this class, too. Maybe. Cute 20-something guys like to play the guitar, right? ;) Sooooo. I think I'm going to sign up for this class. I can always cancel if I decide I'm too chicken shit. *grin*
What do you think?
(I'm predicting 100% of you tell me to go for it. Except for maybe a few smart-asses who will say the opposite now that I've written that sentence. *evil eyes*)
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
Even more drunk postings...
If you find drunk honesty to be too much, or irritating, then I suggest you turn away now. LOL.
These thoughts have been rattling around in my head for quite awhile now, but right now is the only time I feel like actually sharing them. 'Cause who can be embarrassed when they are shitfaced, I ask you? *snort*
I am trying my best to hold the typos to a minimum, but please forgive me if this is absolutely unreadable.
Ok, so. When you think about your dream job, what is it?
*waits for pondering*
For me? it is to be an actress. I haven't told many people that, because I think it is silly. (I know people have blogged about a dream job before. Notice I have never commented, because I am too embarrassed.) A horribly fat actress? *snort* Dream on, Jen! But I honestly think I would be good at it. I think one of my best traits is the fact that I can often put myself in the position of others. I can usually see both, or all, sides to a story. I can imagine what it would be to feel what they are feeling. I think I might be able to portray that as an actress. If only...
If only I wasn't so ugly.
If only I wasn't so fat.
If only I wasn't so shy.
If only I had more self confidence.
If only I didn't live in Strongsville, Ohio! LOL.
Once upon a time, in high school, I thought I would try to pursue my dream. I was going to try out for a school play! But alas, once it came time for auditions, I was too nervous, and I ended up settling for a job on the props crew. *sigh* That is the only time that I have ever even considered pursuing my dream.
What has brought about this self-evaluation and honesty, you ask? LMAO. Well, I have to say that it is all due to my most recent reality tv crush, Benji Schwimmer, winner of So You Think You Can Dance. *snort* If you've watched the show, you might understand my hilarious reaction. Benji is a total dork, a total geek, and a total Mormon! LOL! I, as an agnostic/atheist, would never have imagined myself as a supporter and fangirl of a Mormon, but so it is. Benji made (makes) me happy. He makes me smile. I wish I could lead the kind of life that he does and follow my dream.
One thing that has really stuck out to me (and the main inspiration for this post), is in an interview when Benji was asked if the girl of his dreams had to be able to know how to dance. He said "No. As long as she has a passion."
*sigh* It was at that moment that I realized I really have no passion in life. I would *love* to be an actress, but know that is terribly unrealistic. No matter how hard I diet and try to be beautiful and skinny, I would never make it in Hollywood. I *love* to sing, but know that my voice is probably not good enough to make a career out of it. The only thing I could truly think of that I was passionate about was gay rights. But, Ha! What have I really done to show my support and passion for gay rights? Nothing. *sigh*
I feel like such a loser. A failure with nothing that means something.
Anyhow, if you've read this far, thank you! I know it is not an intersting subject to anyone but me. So I thank you all for being my friends. *smooches* all around.
/drunk posting
Don't be surprised if this is deleted tomorrow. Heh. I was feeling the need to post something personal. and it was between this and my masturbation habits. *snort* (No masturbation posts are forthcoming as of right now, fyi.)
These thoughts have been rattling around in my head for quite awhile now, but right now is the only time I feel like actually sharing them. 'Cause who can be embarrassed when they are shitfaced, I ask you? *snort*
I am trying my best to hold the typos to a minimum, but please forgive me if this is absolutely unreadable.
Ok, so. When you think about your dream job, what is it?
*waits for pondering*
For me? it is to be an actress. I haven't told many people that, because I think it is silly. (I know people have blogged about a dream job before. Notice I have never commented, because I am too embarrassed.) A horribly fat actress? *snort* Dream on, Jen! But I honestly think I would be good at it. I think one of my best traits is the fact that I can often put myself in the position of others. I can usually see both, or all, sides to a story. I can imagine what it would be to feel what they are feeling. I think I might be able to portray that as an actress. If only...
If only I wasn't so ugly.
If only I wasn't so fat.
If only I wasn't so shy.
If only I had more self confidence.
If only I didn't live in Strongsville, Ohio! LOL.
Once upon a time, in high school, I thought I would try to pursue my dream. I was going to try out for a school play! But alas, once it came time for auditions, I was too nervous, and I ended up settling for a job on the props crew. *sigh* That is the only time that I have ever even considered pursuing my dream.
What has brought about this self-evaluation and honesty, you ask? LMAO. Well, I have to say that it is all due to my most recent reality tv crush, Benji Schwimmer, winner of So You Think You Can Dance. *snort* If you've watched the show, you might understand my hilarious reaction. Benji is a total dork, a total geek, and a total Mormon! LOL! I, as an agnostic/atheist, would never have imagined myself as a supporter and fangirl of a Mormon, but so it is. Benji made (makes) me happy. He makes me smile. I wish I could lead the kind of life that he does and follow my dream.
One thing that has really stuck out to me (and the main inspiration for this post), is in an interview when Benji was asked if the girl of his dreams had to be able to know how to dance. He said "No. As long as she has a passion."
*sigh* It was at that moment that I realized I really have no passion in life. I would *love* to be an actress, but know that is terribly unrealistic. No matter how hard I diet and try to be beautiful and skinny, I would never make it in Hollywood. I *love* to sing, but know that my voice is probably not good enough to make a career out of it. The only thing I could truly think of that I was passionate about was gay rights. But, Ha! What have I really done to show my support and passion for gay rights? Nothing. *sigh*
I feel like such a loser. A failure with nothing that means something.
Anyhow, if you've read this far, thank you! I know it is not an intersting subject to anyone but me. So I thank you all for being my friends. *smooches* all around.
/drunk posting
Don't be surprised if this is deleted tomorrow. Heh. I was feeling the need to post something personal. and it was between this and my masturbation habits. *snort* (No masturbation posts are forthcoming as of right now, fyi.)
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
Good mood
I am in a really good mood today, which is a drastic change from the mood I was in yesterday. I hope it lasts. :)
How's your mood today?
How's your mood today?
Friday, August 11, 2006
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Yay! Mmmm! Yay!
My sister just called me to let me know that they have put a Rita's up by her. Woooo! I'm bummed that it's not really convenient for me, but it's better than nothing. And it's probably better that it's not right by me, or else I'd want one all the time. LOL.
Note to self: Make plans to visit sister more. *grin*
Note to self: Make plans to visit sister more. *grin*
Monday, August 07, 2006
311 concert
was awesome! We had so much fun. I went over to Tracy's house and we had a drink before we went. Her boyfriend drove us because we were planning on a big night of drinking. :) We went for dinner at the Hard Rock beforehand. It was very crowded, and there was a screaming baby 2 tables over. But the food was alright and it wasn't as expensive as I thought it would be. My mom's BF had given us this "All Access" card that moves you to the front of the line if there is a wait for a table. At first the wait was going to be 45 minutes, but then I showed the girl the card and she was like "OH! You're all access! Hey Tina! Do we have a table for 2 All Access?!" It was funny how excited about it she was, and what a fuss was made because of this card. We only ended up waiting like 10 minutes. Yay! So all night if we had to wait in a line, we were like "Don't these people know who we are? We're All Access." *snort*
After dinner, we took a shuttle bus to the concert venue. There were 4 really super drunk guys on the shuttle with us. They were so loud and obnoxious, we felt sorry for the driver. The one guy kept asking me if I wanted to hug him for a dollar. I never did figure out if I had to pay the dollar, or if he would pay me a dollar to hug him. Heh. I suspected that I was supposed to pay, which is why I kept saying "Um. No thanks. I'm good." *rolls eyes* Stupid drunk people. *snort*
We didn't really pay any attention to the opening bands. I had never really heard of either of them before. They were both reggae bands. I guess one of them was Bob Marley's old band. I recognized a couple of those songs. We were just kind of hanging out in the back, sitting on a bench and drinking and talking. When 311 came on, we made our way up into the crowd. Tracy and I have been 311 fans for a long time. We've been to every concert they've played in Cleveland, and once we even followed them around Ohio. First a concert in Cincinnati, then one in Columbus, then finished up in Cleveland. That was such fun. The past few concerts of theirs that we've gone to, we thought would probably be our last. Just because we've seen them soooo many times, and it kind of gets boring after awhile. But then we go to the concert, and we have a kick ass time, and the next time they roll around, we always end up going again. Heh. I think it was like the 3rd song in, Tracy turned to me and said "This won't be our last time." LOL.
311 puts on a great show. For those that don't know who they are, they are kind of a mix of rock, rap, and a bit of reggae thrown in. Very high energy. I danced my ass off, and I'm still sore today. Heh. We were drinking and having a blast, and time just flew by. Before we knew it, the concert was over. :( I said "Well, they're going to do an encore." and Tracy said "Um. They just did the encore." LMAO. I called my mom because she was picking us up. Good thing, because we were shitfaced. *grin* We sat on a bench while waiting for her and had a great talk. A talk like we haven't had in years and years. Although Tracy and I have been friends for 10 years, we aren't really close anymore. We had a fight like 5 years ago, and we didn't speak for 2 years after that. Ever since then, we just have a more casual friendship. But on Saturday, we really talked. About our insecurities, about her relationship, and even her sex life, which is something we'd never talked about before. We both knew it was only because we were drunk that we were being so open, but that was ok. I don't know if we'll ever have a talk like that again. I don't know if it will bring us close again, like we used to be. I don't know if it will change our friendship. If it doesn't, that's ok. At least it happened, and I'm glad it did. :)
After dinner, we took a shuttle bus to the concert venue. There were 4 really super drunk guys on the shuttle with us. They were so loud and obnoxious, we felt sorry for the driver. The one guy kept asking me if I wanted to hug him for a dollar. I never did figure out if I had to pay the dollar, or if he would pay me a dollar to hug him. Heh. I suspected that I was supposed to pay, which is why I kept saying "Um. No thanks. I'm good." *rolls eyes* Stupid drunk people. *snort*
We didn't really pay any attention to the opening bands. I had never really heard of either of them before. They were both reggae bands. I guess one of them was Bob Marley's old band. I recognized a couple of those songs. We were just kind of hanging out in the back, sitting on a bench and drinking and talking. When 311 came on, we made our way up into the crowd. Tracy and I have been 311 fans for a long time. We've been to every concert they've played in Cleveland, and once we even followed them around Ohio. First a concert in Cincinnati, then one in Columbus, then finished up in Cleveland. That was such fun. The past few concerts of theirs that we've gone to, we thought would probably be our last. Just because we've seen them soooo many times, and it kind of gets boring after awhile. But then we go to the concert, and we have a kick ass time, and the next time they roll around, we always end up going again. Heh. I think it was like the 3rd song in, Tracy turned to me and said "This won't be our last time." LOL.
311 puts on a great show. For those that don't know who they are, they are kind of a mix of rock, rap, and a bit of reggae thrown in. Very high energy. I danced my ass off, and I'm still sore today. Heh. We were drinking and having a blast, and time just flew by. Before we knew it, the concert was over. :( I said "Well, they're going to do an encore." and Tracy said "Um. They just did the encore." LMAO. I called my mom because she was picking us up. Good thing, because we were shitfaced. *grin* We sat on a bench while waiting for her and had a great talk. A talk like we haven't had in years and years. Although Tracy and I have been friends for 10 years, we aren't really close anymore. We had a fight like 5 years ago, and we didn't speak for 2 years after that. Ever since then, we just have a more casual friendship. But on Saturday, we really talked. About our insecurities, about her relationship, and even her sex life, which is something we'd never talked about before. We both knew it was only because we were drunk that we were being so open, but that was ok. I don't know if we'll ever have a talk like that again. I don't know if it will bring us close again, like we used to be. I don't know if it will change our friendship. If it doesn't, that's ok. At least it happened, and I'm glad it did. :)
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